I took my mom to the grand opening of the new event center at Treasure Island Resort and Casino last night.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Tim McGraw Concert
I took my mom to the grand opening of the new event center at Treasure Island Resort and Casino last night.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Depression and Mom's Impending Death
Sunday was one of those days that bring reality to the forefront.
The first reality I faced was the reality that I did not get to wake up and go to school Monday morning. For the first time in five years I was no longer a college student. It was a little depressing if only for the fact that as a graduate I feel like I have been ostracized from the community that I have called home for so many years. I realize I have a degree now and have no reason to feel that way, but for some reason I feel that way. I am sure that will pass in time.
The depression was compounded by the fact that I received more potentially bad news from my mom. My mother is a terminal cancer patient and her oncologist recently told her that there were no more treatments or drugs that could be tried, that they had exhausted all medical options. Her doctor indicated that she might only have one to three months left. Her abdomen continues filling with ascites so quickly that the doctors have installed a drain to relieve the pressure on her diaphragm to make breathing easier. This past weekend, her hospice nurse informed her that the persistent itching that she has is a signal that her liver may be failing. I guess it is a common symptom of liver failure. I am taking her to see Tim McGraw on Saturday and her nurse told her that this might be the last time she goes out to something like that.
If the end is at hand, I don’t know if I am really ready for that. She has been fighting cancer since before my daughter’s birth. My daughter is now four years old, four and a half actually, and I will have to figure out how to explain to her that “granny” is dead. I’m not really sure how to do that and the thought of having to explain that to her brings tears to my eyes. I can deal with death; I just don’t know how to explain it to a kid.
Monday was a much better day. Once I escaped the confines of my workplace, I hurried home, hit the shower and picked up my girlfriend. We went to Newt’s for dinner with some friends. The burgers were great, as usual. It was an outstanding night to be out. The only bad part was getting home at 12:30 a.m. and not getting to bed until 1 a.m. I was not a happy person when my alarm disturbed my dreams at 6 a.m.
I will get back to my post on T. Boone Pickens and his plan soon, maybe as early as tonight. I watched Third Congressional District DFL candidate Ashwin Madia’s first television spot and will share my thoughts on that tonight.